I have to back date to last month...
I vaguely remember there was one Friday night, both my dear and I had a fight over the phone. I was really angry because he shouted at me and it seems everything I said/did was wrong. Somehow he just wanted his way. I was fragile, everytime when come to argument, I can't hold my tear. I didn't sleep well the whole night and caused I had a big eyes bag.
I went for work on the Saturday Morning. I was moody and feeling restless. I remembered I was the only one on duty. I was kind of busy and phone kept ringing and it seems everything is urgent and I would have to settle it asap. While busying settle one case. I got one stupid phone call from Mat-Salleh. I got scolded by a him over the phone (again) , it wasn't my fault, he was being nasty towards me. I kept quiet while he was release his anger towards me. Then he shouted at me and said : I'm now talking to you, aren't you hear me and answer me? I can't do much and I know I'm not supposed to 'interrupt' him.
All I did is to let him talk and talk, and get rid of his anger. I know it's hard and somehow I have to be patient though my heart was deep hurt inside. As soon as I hang up the call. I quickly ran to the toilet, washed my face and told myself not to cry. After returned to my desk, I saw a sms from dear : Baby, sorry for scolding at u last night. I Love u. I didn't reply him nor call him *tears drop again* I was angry that he don't listen me, meantime I was happy that I'm still the loved one in his heart.
I've got a few missed calls from dear that afternoon. I purposely turned my phone into silent mode. I don't want to answer. Until late night, dear called me and I answered, and he wanted to see me after he had wedding dinner somewhere near my house but I rejected and told him I don't wish to. I need to be alone and be silent. I know he was sad and feel guilty (perhaps) that he'd scolded me badly and he wanted to do something about it. It wasn't the right time for him.
The next day, dear never give up and he came to me. He gave me a hug and trying to be funny, I know all he want is to make me smile again. Which I did. After had our late lunch, we went to OneUtama, did some shopping, he bought sunglasses for me and himself. And then we passed by one wedding fair/promotion held at old wing.
Dear tagged me over and start asking about packages. He said he wanted to find out more, once he sat down, he seems to be interested and started negotiating packages with the staffs there. Ha! Dear was hugging me and asked, should he sign on the wedding package. I said NO and told him to do survey first. Which he agreed at first, but afterall, he signed and paid deposit. He said it was a really good deal, not to miss. I was like OMG... I know the day gonna come, feeling happy yet nervous because I'm not ready...
It was a sweet Sunday for me. I always wanted to have my wedding pictures snap at oversea. Yes, part of my dream came true. My dear bought it without telling him before this. It's all happened on 08 February 2009. Yes, shooting will be in Bali sometime next year.. Thanks dear!! I love you too.
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