女人多的地方是非多

女人多的地方是非多 means when there are women there are gossips!

True, this is proven when your company has more women than men. You will finds it everyday, every hour, every minutes and every seconds. This is insane !!!

I wonder why must they gossips? Why must they back-stab each other? Why can't they just talk it out instead? Why Why Why??? I have so many questions in my mind now.

I just feel all these people very annoying and they just go on strike whenever they want. Hello!!!! You no longer a small kid! Should you find anything you dislike, disagree, just share and tell right upfront. Back-stab would not help you or help me either, and it's not healthy!

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不要跟你所在乎的人 嘔氣太久--會讓你一輩子都後悔的!!

一個個無情的誤解，打亂了幸福的腳步。
當命運的死結終於用代價打開，一切都為時已晚。

接婆婆來家安度晚年﹐結果卻背離我們的初衷﹐
結婚二年後﹐先生跟我商量把婆婆從鄉下接來安度晚年。

先生很小時父親就過世了﹐他是婆婆唯一的寄託﹐
婆婆一個人扶養他長大﹐供他讀完大學。
'含辛茹苦'這四個字用在婆婆的身上﹐絕對不為過！

我連連說好﹐馬上給婆婆收拾出一間南向帶陽台的房間﹐
可以曬太陽﹐養花草什麼的。

先生站在陽光充足的房間﹐一句話沒說﹐卻突然舉起我在房

間裡轉圈﹐
在我張牙舞爪地求饒時﹐先生說﹕'接咱們媽去。'

先生身材高大﹐我喜歡貼著他的胸口﹐
感覺嬌小的身體隨時可被他抓起來塞進口袋。

當我和先生發生爭執而又不肯屈服時﹐先生就把我舉起來﹐
在腦袋上方搖搖晃晃﹐ 一直到我嚇得求饒。
這種驚恐的快樂讓我迷戀。

婆婆在鄉下的習慣一時改不掉。
我習慣買束鮮花擺在客廳裡﹐婆婆後來實在忍不住﹕
'你們娃娃不知道過日子﹐買花幹什麼？又不能當飯吃！'

我笑著說﹕'媽﹐家裡有鮮花盛開﹐人的心情會好。'
婆婆低著頭嘟噥﹐先生就笑﹕
'媽﹐這是城裡人的習慣﹐慢慢的﹐你就習慣了。'

婆婆不再說什麼﹐但每次見我買了鮮花回來﹐依舊忍不住問 花了多少錢﹐
我說了﹐他就'嘖嘖'咂嘴。

有時﹐見我買大包小包的東西回家﹐她就問這個多少錢那個 多少錢﹐
我─如實回答﹐她的嘴就咂的更響了。

先生擰著我的鼻子說﹕'小傻瓜你別告訴她真實價錢不就行 了嗎？'
快樂的生活漸漸有了不和諧的聲音。

婆婆最看不慣我先生起來做早餐。

在她看來﹐大男人給老婆燒飯﹐哪有這個道理？
早餐桌上﹐婆婆經常陰著一張臉﹐我裝做看不見。
婆婆便把筷子弄得叮噹亂響﹐這是她無聲的抗議。

我在少年宮做舞蹈老師﹐跳一整天舞已夠累的了﹐
早晨暖洋洋的被窩﹐我不想扔掉這惟一的享受﹐
於是﹐我對婆婆的抗議裝聾作啞。

婆婆偶爾願意幫我做一些家務﹐但她一做我就更忙了。

比如﹐她把用過的垃圾袋通通收集起來﹐說等攢夠了賣廢塑 料﹐
搞得家裡到處都是廢塑料袋；
她捨不得用洗潔精洗碗﹐為了不傷她的自尊﹐我只好偷偷再洗一遍。

一次﹐我晚上偷偷洗碗被婆婆看見了﹐
她'啪'的一聲摔上門﹐趴在自己的房間裡放聲大哭。

先生左右為難﹐事後﹐先生一晚上沒跟我說話﹐
我撒嬌﹐耍賴﹐他也不理我。
我火了﹐ 問他﹕'我究竟哪裡做錯了？'
先生瞪著我說﹕'你就不能遷就一下﹐碗再不乾淨也吃不死 人吧？'

後來﹐好長一段時間﹐婆婆不跟我說話﹐
家裡的氣氛開始逐漸尷尬。

那段日子﹐先生活得很累﹐不知道要先逗誰開心好。
婆婆為了不讓兒子做早餐﹐義無反顧地承擔起燒早飯的'重 任'。
婆婆看著先生吃得快樂﹐再看看我﹐用眼神譴責我沒有盡到做妻子的責任。
為了逃避尷尬﹐我只好在上班的路上買包奶打發自己。

睡覺時﹐先生有點生氣地問我﹕
'蘆荻﹐是不是嫌棄我媽做飯不衛生才不在家吃？'
翻了一個身﹐他扔給我冷冷的脊背﹐任憑我委屈的流淚。
最後﹐先生嘆氣﹕
'蘆荻﹐就當是為了我﹐你在家吃早餐行不行？'

我只好回到尷尬的早餐桌上。
那天早晨﹐我喝著婆婆煮的稀飯﹐忽然一陣反胃﹐
肚子裡所有的東西都搶著向外奔跑﹐我拼命地壓抑著不讓它 們往上翻湧﹐
但還是壓不住﹐我扔下碗﹐衝進廁所﹐吐得稀裡嘩啦。

當我喘息著平定下來時﹐聽見婆婆夾雜著家鄉話的抱怨和哭 聲﹐
先生站在衛生間門口憤怒地望著我﹐
我乾張著嘴巴說不出話﹐我真的不是故意的。

我和先生開始了第一次激烈的爭吵﹐婆婆先是瞪著眼看我們 ﹐
然後起身﹐蹣跚著出門去了。
先生恨恨地瞪了我一眼﹐下樓追婆婆去了。
意外迎來新生命﹐卻突然葬送了婆婆的性命！

整整三天﹐先生沒有回家﹐連電話都沒有。
我正氣著﹐想想自從婆婆來後﹐我已經受夠委屈了﹐還要我 怎麼樣？
莫明其妙的﹐我最近總想嘔吐﹐吃什麼都沒有胃口﹐
加上亂七八糟的家事﹐心情差到了極點。

後來﹐還是同事告訴我﹕'蘆荻﹐你臉色很差﹐還是去醫院 看看吧。'
醫院檢查的結果是我懷孕了。

我明白了那天早晨我為什麼突然嘔吐﹐幸福中夾著一絲幽怨 ﹕
先生和曾經是過來人的婆婆﹐他們怎麼就絲毫沒有想到這點呢？
在醫院門口﹐我看見了先生。僅僅三天沒見﹐他憔悴了許多。

我本想轉身就走﹐但他的模樣讓我心疼﹐沒忍住﹐我喊了他 。
先生循著聲音看見了我﹐卻好像不認識了﹐
眼神裡有一絲藏不住的厭惡﹐這冰冷地刺傷了我。

我跟自己說不要看他不要看他﹐伸手攔了一輛出租車。

那時﹐我多想向先生大喊一聲﹕
'親愛的我要給你生個寶貝了！'然後被他舉起來﹐幸福地 旋轉。

我希望的並沒有發生。

在出租車裡﹐我的眼淚才遲遲地落下來。

為什麼一場爭吵就讓愛情糟糕到這樣的程度？
回家後﹐我躺在床上想先生﹐想他滿眼的厭惡。我握著被子 的一角哭了。

夜裡﹐家裡有翻抽屜的聲音。
打開燈﹐我看見先生淚流滿面的臉。他正在拿錢。
我冷冷地看著他﹐一聲不響。他對我視若無睹﹐拿著存摺和 鈔票匆匆離開。
或許先生是打算徹底離開我了。
真是個理智的男人﹐情與錢分得如此清楚。
我冷笑了幾下﹐眼淚'嘩啦嘩啦 '的流下來。

第二天﹐我沒去上班。想徹底清理一下自己的思緒﹐找先生 好好談一談。
找到先生的公司﹐秘書有點奇怪地看著我說﹕
'陳總的母親出了車禍﹐這幾天都在醫院裡呢。'我瞠目結舌。
飛奔到醫院﹐找到先生時﹐婆婆已經去世了。

先生一直不看我﹐一臉僵硬。
我望著婆婆幹瘦蒼白的臉﹐眼淚止不住﹕天哪！怎麼會是這 樣？

直到安葬了婆婆﹐先生也沒跟我說一句話﹐
甚至看我一眼都帶著深深的厭惡。

關於車禍﹐我還是從別人嘴裡了解到大概﹐婆婆出門後迷迷 糊糊地向車站走﹐她想回老家﹐
先生越追她走得越快﹐穿過馬路時﹐一輛公車迎面撞過來……

我終於明白了先生的厭惡﹐如果那天早晨我沒有嘔吐﹐如果 我們沒有爭吵﹐如果……在他的心裡﹐認定我是間接殺死他母親的罪人。

先生默不作聲搬進了婆婆的房間﹐每晚回來都滿身酒氣。
而我一直被愧疚和可憐的自尊折騰得喘不過氣來﹐
想跟他解釋﹐想跟他說我們快有孩子了﹐
但看著他冰冷的眼神﹐又把所有的話都咽了回去。

我寧願先生打我一頓或者罵我一頓﹐雖然這一切事故都不是 我故意要它發生的。

日子一天一天地窒息著重覆下去﹐先生回家的時間越來越晚 。
我們僵持著﹐比一般的陌生人還要尷尬。
我是繫在他心上的死結。

一次﹐我路過一家西餐廳﹐穿過透明的落地窗﹐ 我看見先生和一個年輕女孩面對面坐著﹐
他輕輕地為女孩攏了攏頭髮﹐我就明白了這一切。
先是呆住﹐然後我進了西餐廳﹐站在先生面前﹐死死盯著他 看﹐眼裡沒有一滴淚。

我什麼也不想說﹐也無話可說。
女孩看看我﹐看看我先生﹐站起來想走﹐但我先生伸手按住 她﹐
然後﹐同樣死死地﹐一樣絕不示弱地看著我。
我只能聽見自己緩慢的心跳﹐一下一下跳動在瀕臨死亡般的蒼白邊緣。
輸了的是我﹐如果再站下去﹐我會和肚子裡的孩子一起倒下的。

那一夜﹐先生沒回家﹐他用這樣的方式讓我明白﹕
隨著婆婆的去世﹐我們的愛情也死了。
先生再也沒有回來過。
有時﹐我下班回來﹐看見衣櫥有被動過──是先生回來拿一 點自己的東西。
我不想給他打電話﹐原先還有試圖向他解釋一番的念頭﹐但一切都已經徹底失去了。

我一個人過生活﹐一個人去醫院作產檢﹐
每每看見有男人小心地扶著妻子去做產檢﹐我的心便碎的不 成樣子。
同事隱約勸我拿掉算了﹐我堅決說不﹐
我發瘋似的一定要生下這個孩子﹐也算是對婆婆的死的補償吧。

我下班回來﹐先生坐在客廳裡﹐滿屋子煙霧彌漫﹐茶几上擺 著一張紙。
沒必要看﹐我知道那裡面寫了什麼內容。
先生不在家的二個多月﹐我逐漸學會了平靜。

我看著他﹐摘下帽子﹐說﹕'你等一下﹐我簽字。'
先生看著我﹐眼神複雜﹐和我一樣。
我一邊解大衣扣子一邊在心裡對自己說﹕'不哭不能哭…… '眼睛很疼﹐
但我決不讓眼淚流出來。
掛好大衣﹐先生的眼睛死死的盯著我已然隆起的肚子。

我笑了笑﹐走過去﹐拖過那張紙﹐看也不看﹐簽上自己的名 字﹐推還給他。
'蘆荻﹐你懷孕了？'
自從婆婆出事後﹐這是先生跟我說的第一句話。

我再也管不住眼睛﹐眼淚一瞬間嘩啦地流下來。
我說﹕'是啊﹐不過沒事﹐你可以走了。'
先生沒走﹐黑暗裡﹐我們對望著。

先生慢慢趴在我身上﹐眼淚滲透了被子。
而在我心裡﹐很多東西已經走遠了﹐遠到即使我奔跑都追不 到了。

不記得先生跟我說過多少遍'對不起'了﹐
我也曾經以為自己會原諒﹐但卻不能﹐在西餐廳先生當著那 個女孩的面﹐
他那冰冷的眼神﹐這輩子﹐我忘記不了了。

我們在彼此心上劃下了一道不可磨滅的傷痕。
我的﹐是無意的；他的﹐是刻意的。

期待著冰釋前嫌﹐但過去的已無法再重來！

除了想起肚子裡的孩子時心裡是暖暖的﹐而對先生﹐我心是 冷如冰霜﹐
不吃他買的任何東西﹐不收他的任何禮物﹐不跟他多說一句話。

從在那張紙上簽了字後﹐婚姻以及愛情統統在我的心裡消失 了。
有時先生試圖進臥室﹐他來﹐我就出去客廳﹐先生只好睡回婆婆的房間。
夜裡﹐從先生的房間有時會傳來輕微的呻吟﹐我都一聲不響。

這是他習慣玩的伎倆﹐以前只要我不理他了﹐他就裝病﹐
我就會乖乖投降﹐關心他怎麼了﹐他就一把抓住我哈哈大笑 。
他似乎忘了﹐那時﹐我會心疼是因為有愛情﹐
而現在﹐我們還有什麼？

先生的呻吟斷斷續續的一直到孩子出生。
他幾乎每天都在給孩子買東西﹐嬰兒用品﹐兒童用品﹐
以及孩子喜歡的書﹐一包包的﹐快把他的房間堆滿了。
我知道他是想用這樣的方式感動我﹐而我完全不為所動。

他只好關在房間裡﹐用電腦'批哩啪啦'敲字﹐
或許他正網戀吧﹐但對我已經是無所謂的事了。
隔年春未的一個深夜﹐劇烈的腹痛讓我叫了出來﹐
先生一個箭步衝進來﹐好像他根本就沒脫衣服睡覺﹐

為的就是等這一刻的到來。
先生背起我就往樓下跑﹐攔車﹐一路上緊緊地握住我的手﹐
不停地幫我擦掉額頭上的汗。
到了醫院﹐背起我就往婦產科跑。

趴在他幹瘦而溫暖的背上﹐一個念頭忽然闖進我心裡﹕
這一生﹐還有人會像他這樣疼愛我嗎？
先生扶著產房的門把喘息著﹐看著我被推進去﹐
那眼神是暖融融的﹐我忍著陣痛對他笑了一下。

從產房出來後﹐先生望著我和兒子﹐
眼睛濕濕地笑啊笑啊的。

我摸了一下他的手﹐卻是意外的冰冷
先生望著我﹐微笑﹐然後﹐緩慢而疲憊地癱軟倒下。
我放聲叫喊著他名字……
先生依然笑著﹐但沒睜開那疲憊的眼睛……
我以為這一生我再也不會為先生流一滴淚﹐
而事實卻是﹐從沒有過的如此劇痛撕扯著我的身體。

醫生說﹐我先生的肝癌發現時已是晚期﹐他能堅持這麼久真 的算是奇蹟。
我問醫生什麼 時候發現的？
醫生說在五個月前﹐然後安慰我﹕'好好的準備後事吧。'
我不顧護士的阻攔﹐回到家﹐衝進先生的房間打開電腦﹐
心跳一下子被疼痛窒息了。

先生的肝癌在五個月前就已發現﹐他在夜裡的呻吟是真的﹐
我居然還以為……
而電腦上滿滿的20多萬字﹐是先生寫給兒子的留言﹕
孩子﹐為了你﹐我一直在堅持﹐我要撐到看你一眼再倒下﹐
是我這一生最大的願望……
我知道﹐你的一生會有很多快樂或者遇到挫折﹐
如果我能夠陪你經歷這個成長歷程﹐那該有多麼美好﹐
但我想爸爸我沒有這個機會了。

爸爸在電腦上﹐把你一生可能遇到的問題一一地寫下來﹐
當你之後遇到這些問題時﹐或許你可以參考爸爸給你的意見 …………
孩子﹐寫完這20多萬字﹐我感覺像陪你經歷了整個成長過程。

真的﹐爸爸現在很快樂。

好好愛你的媽媽﹐她很辛苦﹐
她是這世上最愛你的人﹐也是我這世上最愛的人……
從兒子去幼兒園到讀小學﹐讀中學﹐大學﹐
到工作以及愛情種種方面﹐巨細靡遺都寫到了。

先生也給我寫了留言﹕

親愛的﹐娶了你是我一輩子最大的幸福﹐
原諒我對你的傷害﹐原諒我隱瞞了病情﹐
因為我想讓你有個好的心情等待孩子的出生……

親愛的﹐如果你現在哭了﹐那代表你已經原諒我了﹐
那我就會笑了﹐謝謝你一直愛著我…還為我生了個孩子…
這些禮物﹐我想我是沒有機會親自送給孩子了﹐
請你每年替我送他幾份禮物﹐包裝盒子上都寫好了送禮物的 日期……親愛的……
回到醫院﹐先生依舊在昏迷中。

我把兒子抱過來﹐放在他身邊﹐我說﹕
'你睜開眼笑一下吧﹐我要讓兒子記住在他爸爸懷裡的溫暖 ……'
先生艱難地睜開眼﹐微微地笑了一下。
兒子偎依在他懷裡﹐舞動著粉紅色的小手。

我'喀嚓喀嚓'按下快門﹐淚水在臉上放肆地流……

[人生最大的懲罰就是後悔]，有智慧的您--能不好好把 握嗎？

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Ooouucchh, it's swelling...

I got a new pair of leather court shoes from baby lately, and I'd decided to get the heel liner to prevent any friction or heel slip. I thought it should be fine since SCHOLL brand is famous and the heel liner is cushioned for comfort and pressure relief.

I wore it for work today and it was OK at first but.... later it got worsen.. OMG, I hate seeing blisters all over.. I have at least two blisters at each feet, one on the right and one on the left and even on my tiptoes. This-is-really-really-bad!!!

***Yelling***

I can't walk probably with the new shoes today, it caused so much pain when I walked. And I removed the heel liner immediately upon arrival. I feel much better by then but it's still in pain. I try not to go toilet that often. I try not to go pantry to fill my drink that often. I even asked my colleague to buy me lunch (of course, I didn't tell them what happened, just said too busy with works.. hahaha)

I will bend u, SCHOLL!

I was telling myself, no more heel liner, it's bad for my feet. I can't take it. I feel like crying when shower water splash onto the wound just now... OooOuuuucccchhhh, it's swelling and so painful now... I'm not going to wear heel shoes tomorrow onwards until the pain subsides...

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You F***er !

There was one evening, heading back to PJ after work. The LRT was so damn pack and there was a man standing behind me (back to back), pretty close to me which I hate it and I start pushing my handbag so that he would know that I'm giving him a sign that " hey, don't stand so close !" (because you woudn't know whether he has any bad intention or not, especially with their itchy hands and would start molest you anytime.)

But somehow he just don't get it I supposed. Upon reaching in Masjid Majek station, I got a seat and I sat down. He was then standing right infront of me, facing me and holding the pole. He was about 6ft height, thin and has a criminal look on his face. (you would want to give him a punch on his face if you ever see him!)

While he was holding the pole, he was staring at me too. The way he hold the pole was damn weird. He was pointing his super long middle finger while holding the pole at my eye level!!! What, was it the new style of holding the pole? Or your mom teach you to be manner by showing your middle finger??? I wonder ! He keep pointing it for at least 15mins. I started to feel uneasy as someone keep staring at me and it seems like having a bad intention on me.

I was supposed to get down at Taman Jaya station where baby pick me up but I didn't, due to safety reason, and I just afraid he might follow, because the station wasn't that many people. I then decided to continue until the last station which only 5 stations away.

At the second last station, the lady who sat next to me, left and here go this idoit sat next to me, crossed his arm and opened his leg widely. Really what the fuck ! I was very pissed off that time, stood up and walked to the end of the train and sit down there and backtracked my journey to Taman Jaya again.

It was lucky that he didn't follow, else I don't even dare to think what would happen. Once I got in the car, I was scolding not only the 4 letters words, but all the vulgar words and was cursing him to death!!!

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Last Day of March

I'd been resting at home for about 2 weeks now. It's very boring life without a job! I can't wait to go back for work. Staying at home do nothing but eat, sleep and shit, somehow update my blog and download some HongKong series.

I'd enough rest, it's time to resume my working life. I will start my new job next week. Hurray !!! Finally I got a job during recession time. Not so bad =P

Wish me luck for the new job :)

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A Big Day for ChauYi

Congratulation to my best friend--Chauyi, finally stepped into another chapter of life after 8 years courtship with her bf. Now, she's married!! The wedding was held in JB.

All of us traveled from Kuching, Singapore, Kuala Lumpur to JB to attend this special event. It was a great gathering among ex-housemates, ex-schoolmate and ex-classmate. I missed those time when we were still young and during college's life. It was full of fun and no doubt. But now seeing my friends are getting married...one by one, year by year... they are no longer being single and lonely. Indeed, I'm happy for all of you !

seven sisters

ex-housemates from 106

the pretty bride

The actual day was on 21 March, Saturday. But I'd arrived JB one day earlier, can't wait to see the bride :P I was also invited to become 'ji mui' (sister). We had 7 sisters. We thought and shared games for the bridegroom's brothers. But the brothers wasn't steady and not supporting enough to take up the challenges. hahahaha.. After games and tea ceremony to the elderly, we traveled from Kulai to Megah Ria (the bridegroom's house) to had our buffet lunch. Then we went to Perling, the lovely house for the couple. We chilled there, took our nap before preparing ourselves for the cruise dinner at Danga Bay.

the bears

sisters with the couples @ Perling

the rose

It was my first time to board cruise for dinner. It wasn't a big cruise and good enough to accommodate 19 tables for close friends and relatives. We enjoyed the sunset onboard and also busy help out at the reception.

it's me @ the reception

During dinner, we (Regina, Ami, Linzi and myself) went on stage to perform a song to the couples. Then, the couples also shared their feeling with us. It was so touched at that moment, they shed their tears, so were their parents after listened to their words that kept it to themselves all the while.

the two gorgeous

the entertainers of the night

with the bride after dinner

We had lot of fun during dinner, we talked, we laughed, and of cause we drink. :) dinner ended about 11pm. We were the last to leave as we were still busy snapping pictures.. hahaha Well, it was a happy day for us. Once again, I wish you both happy always and take care of my 'kai zai' :P

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Sweet Sunday

I have to back date to last month...

I vaguely remember there was one Friday night, both my dear and I had a fight over the phone. I was really angry because he shouted at me and it seems everything I said/did was wrong. Somehow he just wanted his way. I was fragile, everytime when come to argument, I can't hold my tear. I didn't sleep well the whole night and caused I had a big eyes bag.

I went for work on the Saturday Morning. I was moody and feeling restless. I remembered I was the only one on duty. I was kind of busy and phone kept ringing and it seems everything is urgent and I would have to settle it asap. While busying settle one case. I got one stupid phone call from Mat-Salleh. I got scolded by a him over the phone (again) , it wasn't my fault, he was being nasty towards me. I kept quiet while he was release his anger towards me. Then he shouted at me and said : I'm now talking to you, aren't you hear me and answer me? I can't do much and I know I'm not supposed to 'interrupt' him.

All I did is to let him talk and talk, and get rid of his anger. I know it's hard and somehow I have to be patient though my heart was deep hurt inside. As soon as I hang up the call. I quickly ran to the toilet, washed my face and told myself not to cry. After returned to my desk, I saw a sms from dear : Baby, sorry for scolding at u last night. I Love u. I didn't reply him nor call him *tears drop again* I was angry that he don't listen me, meantime I was happy that I'm still the loved one in his heart.

I've got a few missed calls from dear that afternoon. I purposely turned my phone into silent mode. I don't want to answer. Until late night, dear called me and I answered, and he wanted to see me after he had wedding dinner somewhere near my house but I rejected and told him I don't wish to. I need to be alone and be silent. I know he was sad and feel guilty (perhaps) that he'd scolded me badly and he wanted to do something about it. It wasn't the right time for him.

The next day, dear never give up and he came to me. He gave me a hug and trying to be funny, I know all he want is to make me smile again. Which I did. After had our late lunch, we went to OneUtama, did some shopping, he bought sunglasses for me and himself. And then we passed by one wedding fair/promotion held at old wing.

Dear tagged me over and start asking about packages. He said he wanted to find out more, once he sat down, he seems to be interested and started negotiating packages with the staffs there. Ha! Dear was hugging me and asked, should he sign on the wedding package. I said NO and told him to do survey first. Which he agreed at first, but afterall, he signed and paid deposit. He said it was a really good deal, not to miss. I was like OMG... I know the day gonna come, feeling happy yet nervous because I'm not ready...

It was a sweet Sunday for me. I always wanted to have my wedding pictures snap at oversea. Yes, part of my dream came true. My dear bought it without telling him before this. It's all happened on 08 February 2009. Yes, shooting will be in Bali sometime next year.. Thanks dear!! I love you too.

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Farewell Gift

I got an aircraft model as my farewell gift, it's Boeing 747-400 with the scale of 1:100 :P

I always wanted to have a aircraft model to display at my home but it's just too costly to buy it. Well, this time I owned it as for my remembrance with the 2 years service with the company. I will miss the branding, the name, the logo, everything! I'll miss NWA.

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50 Random Facts about IvyIsabelle

(1) I'm a sleeping beauty. I could sleep more than 12 hours during weekend or public holidays.

(2) I hate being disturbed by phone calls or noises when I sleep. So please don't call me during odd hours.

(3) I MUST snooze for one hour before I wake up.

(4) I blog during office hours whenever I'm feeling upset & angry.

(5) I eat a alot. I could eat 2 bowls of rice or more when my favaurite dishes served. So guys, don't run away from me =P

(6) I'm not a good drinker.

(7) You may call me Ivy (Vy) or Isabelle (Belle) or IvyIsabelle whichever you feel comfort with. Ivy is my name given by my parents. Isabelle is my Christian name.

(8) I'm desperate to find a BF, to get married, and to have baby.

(9) I hate guys being so egoistic and wonder WHY.

(10) I'm a good listener, feel free to talk to me.

(11) I'm bad temper person but it will last very shortly.

(12) I'll get mad whenever I receive calls and get bombard like nobody business especially when I'm not given a chance to talk and explain.

(13) I don't like to talk over the phone and I hate texting sms. Don't be surprised when I don't reply your sms or forwarded sms. It is waste of my time.

(14) I would love to be seated in a 'lotus position' whenever I'm inside the cinema.

(15) I love cooking. I like to take my own sweet time to do preparation and cook it.

(16) Despite complaining about dear do not spend more time with me, but I love all sort of stuffs and planning he did for me so far.

(17) I would love to travel around-the-world if only I got sponsorship.. volunteer please, anyone ?

(18) I hate writing/reading mandarin but I love caligraphy.

(19) I hate my relatives asked me : "Ivy, when are you getting married? You are not young anymore." My respond to them : " I have not got enough angpao(s), wait another few more years." ***Hey, I need to save more angpao (money) to get married la.***

(20) I could work and I have saving and I don't like to use Bf's money.

(21) I love to pamper myself with hot-stone massage.

(22) Don't scream and raise your voice whenever you are asking a favor from me. I would definately not helping you with your bad attitude.

(23) I hate people to smoke inside the toilet/bathroom with all the ash all over the floor.

(24) I love kids.

(25) I could only fall asleep with a small pillow cover my eyes.

(26) I hate to sleep with the aircond ON when I do not have a nice and warm comforter.

(27) I love music/songs. I listen to music/songs everyday while on the way to work.

(28) At least a cup of coffee in a day.

(29) I hate cat. I will kick it when it comes near to me.

(30) I like to watch funny shows/movies.

(31) I laugh very loudly.. sometime I would feel embarrass when strangers are around.

(32) I hate people nagging at me.

(33) I don't donate money to people when I'm eating.

(34) I hate people telling lies.

(35) I hate the feeling of being betrayed.

(36) I normally get more attentions/attracts from older man. I wonder WHY.

(37) I don't like to be waited or to wait for people. So, better be punctual when you date me.

(38) I'm happy-go-lucky person.

(39) If you ever make me angry one day, just wait for the next day because I need to sleep over it. Then I'll be ok.

(40) I like surprises but I don't have any that really surprise me so far.

(41) I love sea. I love to enjoy myself sitting next to it and enjoying the coconut drink.

(42) I like seafood. CRAB is my favor dish!

(43) I wonder why some of my friends enjoy seeing me eat.

(44) I like sedan car.

(45) I like aircraft. I like seeing aeroplane landing and taking off.

(46) I'm not a loving or romantic person, but learning to be one.

(47) I eat with one leg up on the chair while eating at home.

(48) I'm soft hearted person though I look cool somehow.

(49) I don't speak to strangers or friend's friends or friend's friend's friends

(50) When I'm moody, I'll be very quiet. I rather sleep at home.

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Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday to ME... I'm NOT getting old okay =P (indeed I am)
Not much celebration, but I getting all the birthday wishes from my dearest friends from Facebook, SMS and calls...
I've got 2 dresses as a birthday gift from baby and dinner at his house.
It was just a simple and nice day with baby beside me.

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Appointment Letter

Well, I was given an appointment letter and it was only 2 pages !!!!! WTF.

*Calm Down Girl*

*Reading it now, words by words, carefully*

*Getting frustrating*

*Getting more frustrating*

This is a really fuck-up appointment letter that I ever seen!!!!!

(1) 12 Days annual leave will be given AFTER one full year of service !
(2) 14 Days medical leave will be given AFTER one full year of service !
(3) No EPF/Socso/Income Tax listed in the appointment letter !
(4) Not mention the working hours, reporting time and where to work !
(5) No maternity/paternity leave !

**************S P E E C H L E S S**************

(1) I asked for annual leave to be proportioned.
They said they would think about it... subject for approval...
(2) I asked for medical leave as PAID leave.
They said : If you have the reason to be sick, that could be considered. *wtf*
(3) They said EPF/Socso will be given, Income tax will be deducted.
(4) Understood the working hours is from 9am-6pm, Monday to Friday, 9am to 1pm on Saturday.
(5) You think that I'm not getting married and WILL NOT get pregnant is it? Idiot!

They said those are not listed in the appointment letter shall follow the labour law. Well, how would I know you will follow the labour law? All this should be written, not verbally ! I requested them to amend the clauses above but it was declined. This is just too bad.

Well, since you are not considerate and I have no say. I'm not going there ! Definitely a big NO NO !!

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Multitasking = Multipay?

Well, the interview I've gone through was very negative.

They wanted me to be multitasking. (well, I don't mind. Multitasking is for my own good. But, do I get multi-pay? I was asking myself...)

They do not willing to pay me, not even to remain as my current pay. They told me their grandmother stories, how an employer works and their experiences and the tough time they had (e.g Gulf War, economy downturn in 1997 and etc) .

Who cares? You are the employer, not me ! Don't tell me how you gonna deal with it when you company is not working. I'm the employee, all I need to know is I'll have enough MONEY every month. Don't expect me as an employee to think as an employer ! Idiot!

I do not feel easy during the whole interview, I feel pressure, they corner me very hard. =(

p/s : Friends, the interview I had is not the usual interview. This is exceptional case that I have to go for it...

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Insomnia

I'm feeling restless. I do not have good sleep for the past few nights. I can't fall asleep but I force myself to. It was already midnight 1-2 ish and really tiring because I need to wake up early.

Last night I didn't really sleep. That's why today was freaking tired and sleepy in the office. While on the way home, I almost fainted inside the train but I managed to squat down before I fall. My body was numb with cold.

I know no one could help me that time but it's okay. I'm tough enough and I was born to have the ability, I was trained to be strong to get myself home safely! Yes, I made it! I don't need your care and I don't need your help. No one would know how was it feel. No one...

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1st Day of December

First day of the month.. I got sick....

Having fever and sorethroat now... Body aching all over...

I really need a rest... *snoring*

P/s : I have many things to update but just too busy and too lazy....

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Sad Friday

Today is not a good day for me. I'm feeling really upset!

I was deeply hurt by your words and I thought of it over and over again. I dropped my tears during work as well as on the way back home. I just couldn't take it eventhough I sound steady with my deep sad voice.

I'm stuck now, and I really do not know what should I do. How could I ? How could you? How could us? How? Tell me what should I do.

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My Holidays...

I was kinda busy with my works lately eversince when I back from my work+holidays to Sabah & Kuching last month.

Erm... now back to my work+holidays..

I was in KK for a week, first two nights was with my sales manager for work and then I'd extended my holidays, another four nights. One of my colleague asked me, don't I feel bored staying in KK for a week? My replied to her was NO.. not at all. I was so busy working and meeting up my friends.. I was so exciting...

When I was in KK, I brought one of my friend from KL--Kim Jie to visit KK.. I brought her to Muzium Sabah, and Nexus Karambunai Beach Resort and had a late lunch together at Warisan Square before I sent her back to her aunt's house. There goes half a day... and then I drove to airport to meet up my ex-colleagues.

at the skull hut..

kim jie...

Nexus Karambunai Garden...

Nexus Karambunai Resort

Besides meeting up with my ex-colleagues for dinner, I also went up to the Kinabalu Park for a night stay with friends! It was so cold up there because it was raining heavily and windy. It was a nice place to stay (I think the last visit plus overnight was few years back). Feeling so cool and relax.

Sg.Mamut at Poring Hot Spring

My hotel beds...

Kundasang

do we look alike? Hehe

at longhouse

It was a bit rush for me to arrange time to meet up all of my friends. Sorry ok.. In fact I called them to meet up but I just couldn't make it in time.. bad me.. *feeling guilty* I will make sure I have sufficient time for the next visit. It'll be very soon ok... It will.. =)

While waiting for my friend to pick me from hotel to airport... this is what I did in the hotel room... camwhoring (again) ...=P

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camwhoring at the hotel room...

the picture i like the most

After staying six nights in KK, I had another three nights stay in Kuching. I was staying with one of my ex-colleague from MI. Since i was not familiar with the roads in Kuching, so they will have to become my driver, I just like to be driven... =P . They brought me to local delicacies.. I like the noodles. I had noodles for my three meals a day. A bowl of noodles is just so cheap !!! Love it !

She's just look gorgeous..

my ex-colleagues..

us... at TrianglePub

Just me... =P

I met up my best friend in Kuching too---Linzi.. I miss you badly, seriously! We talked, we shared our lifes/works/relationships and etc.. It was just great ! Hope to see you again with Chauyi.. We shall plan a trip again for next year ok. *muaks*

My beloved friend--Linzi

Till then, shall update more later. *sleepy*

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My Bed

This is where I stayed when I was in KK. I stayed here for 4 nights for FREE okay...

Cool right? This is the Deluxe Seaview Room with King size bed. I have the room all by myself, yes, I'm alone.. so what? Don't be jealous!

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I Wish I Could

I wish I could by your side
I wish I could be your loved one forever
I wish we could spend a night on our own
I wish we could be a little bit closer

I wish you could stare at me, look into my eyes
wipe off my tears and telling me that
your heart feeling hurt too when you see me cry
Tell me I'm the only one you love

I wish... I could...

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Stop Burning My Love

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